I was tested and tempted almost beyond what I could bear. I struggled with my conscience up to the last minute. I searched the corners of my inner being trying to find a way to justify doing the wrong thing. Suddenly, I imagined my mom in heaven one day asking me why I did what I did in the 2012 election and that did it. It was the final mental battle that pushed me over the edge to actually vote for Obama.
But, wait! Hear me out before you judge me and I get banned for my wretched, inexplicable decision.
My mom had a stroke in 2004 and though it was a mild stroke, over the years she slowly declined in her health and physical strength until she can no longer care for herself. While she still eats, speaks and thinks, she can no longer write, see or walk so she is completely dependent upon her children and grandchildren to care for her. Thus, I had to fill out my mom's early voting ballot for her for the second time in my life.
Being in California, we have quite a few propositions on the ballot and my mom told me she didn't care about those and I was to use my own judgment when marking her vote. But when it came to the President of the U.S., she made very clear that she could never vote for Romney and wanted to vote for Obama.
It was hard for me. As I alluded to above, I literally struggled with my conscience thinking I will do the right thing, overrule my mom's judgment and vote for Romney. After all, she will never know what I did and it's for the good of the country.
Then I thought that sounded like the way a liberal justifies doing wrong. So, I took a deep breath, steadied the pen in my hand and marked my mom's ballot for Obama.
Politics can be devious, evil things. Actually had me considering betraying my own mother. It was tough, but I think I did the right thing.
Out of respect for my mother, I will refrain from discussing how I watched her slowly morph into a Democrat after being a staunch Republican for many years. For now, I am just going to relish in the relief I feel because I will be able to face my mom in heaven with a clear conscience.