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We Won. Big. Now Whip It. Take a Walk in the Sunshine with My Departed Son.

[promoted from the diaries by haystack...this is an excellent read]

With apologies to AG, we won this week, and we won big.  But AG is right, it’s time to whip it.

I won on Tuesday.  I woke up on Wednesday morning and my first thought was…

Dear Erik,
I won…

…because I had stood for central committee partly to set an example for my 12 year old son Erik who died suddenly in April.  When Erik eventually understood what I was doing, he was excited and proud.  He knew I was doing it partly to set an example for him.

You have to understand who I am.  I’m a cyber-caveman who writes software and blog posts.  I fly into a rage when the phone rings breaking my concentration.  I hate people.  I like solitude.  I hate lying, scheming, devious politicians.

Now I are one.  Politician, anyway.

My son, when he stayed at my house every other weekend and over school holidays, knew it was no use trying to engage Dad in the morning until I had my coffee, had cleared the online help desk, and had read Redstate and Hot Air.  That was OK.  He had caught the fever too and he had his own online morning ritual ablutions.  Then we’d get in the truck and go fishing… or go do some service work… or go down to the PD where I volunteer.  Once we did the legendary All-American Cross Country Road Trip to NC from LA.  A month with my son on the road.  Without Redstate.  Just us.  Awesome.

But I had the thought one morning just before I caught one of Coldwarrior’s  exhortations to get off the keyboard and out in the street.  ’Why am I typing when I should be out meeting my neighbors?’  Then Coldwarrior’s words reinforced that thought.

I was sitting in front of my party county secretary that same day, finding out what I had to do to be on the central committee.  The next day I was at the courthouse pulling my papers to be a CC candidate.

Dear Erik,
I won…
…rather, you produced a win for me…

Erik had ambitions (actually a lock) to attend West Point and eventually lead his platoon on a little walk in the woods.  I was trying to add to that ambition a certainty that a little walk in the sunshine was also his duty in the precinct.

A real man also has a burning ambition to genuinely serve his neighbors.   OMG, the personal demons I had to overcome to try to teach him that.

I began to learn what it would take to be a genuine public servant.  An elected party official.  A successful campaigner.  An effective player.  An ability to work with perceived enemies as well as my birds of a feather.  All those things I hate about politicians.

I took a couple of those walks in the sunshine to get my petitions signed and I met my neighbors.  I acquired an awesome mentor – my own district CC chair (also a renegade) who took me under her wing and guided me.   She lives in the precinct right next door to PDI’s sample precinct map (PROCINCT’s is much better – try zooming in to street-view and imagine what that will do for a precinct captain).  What an amazing woman.  She has taught me well.  If I can mentor others half as well, I’ll be a complete success.

It’s not only essential that we get away from whining on the keyboard, it’s also very, very easy.  And I grudgingly admit, sorta fun.  Folks, there is little to no competition out there.  I say that as a new CC member in the largest Republican county in the nation: Los Angeles.  Running and winning was a cakewalk.  Sitting and whining is the real ordeal.   It’s a topic for a totally different post, but the parties everywhere are entirely satisfied with having no precinct operations – they can govern their party through the media and micro-targeting.  They certainly don’t want to have to reckon with you.

For only a while longer.

I spent $250 to win my campaign and sit among the seven who won, of the 12 who ran.  I started my ‘political career’ by being the biggest spender in the race.  $150 to be on a slate mailer.  $50 for Constant Contact for 2 mass emails.  $50 for the data from the courthouse that eventually became PROCINCT.

Yes, it was the ideas more than the money that got me elected.  Ideas that my son shared with in his heart along with me.

Dear Erik…
I won…
…and I’m glad I had some small clue of my obligation to you, even if my clues weren’t complete…

Put your manhood or your womanhood but especially your citizenship on the line along with your scathing words online.  In these days when citizenship seems to mean less and less, there is one certain way to separate yourself forever and for certain from the illegal alien.  Stand for your CC.  Get elected.  Do the one thing that an alien can never, ever do: take that walk in the sunshine and ask your neighbors for their vote.

Dear Erik…
I won…
…you are inspiring me further…

I tried to teach you to be a leader.  That if you discover that you can lead, then you must lead.  You were learning that lesson very well.

Now I learn that people trust me.  They trust this cyber-caveman who flies into a rage when the phone rings.  They trusted me with a precinct.  Then they gave me precinct operations for the entire district.  Then they appointed me as an alternate CC.   Then the voters indicated that they trust me.    That’s just four months of very part-time work, folks.  What could I do in two years?  What am I going to do with that trust?  Well first of all, I’m going to stand for chairman of my district.   I’ve done the above and I’ve delivered that funky PROCINCT online software for precinct captains and district captains.   I’m going to fight for the chairmanship for my district because I have the vision, the energy and the tools.  And I’ll produce the relationships, learning along the way.  Others here in the neighborhood think so too.  I know today that I have the votes in my pocket to claim that district chairmanship.  And I will.  And I will use it.  Boy will I ever use it.

Obama, you may be looking for an ass to kick, but I solemnly promise you a memorable electoral ass-kicking from my district here in LA.  And the neighboring districts.  We are forming a relationship with the voters here that has not existed for 50 years.  We won’t ‘be there’ by this November, but we will be unstoppable in Nov 2012.  The media and the micro-targeting will begin to stop working for you as my people get to know their neighbors face-to-face.  We don’t even have to proselytize - all we have to do is hold a context, care about results, and serve.

And any other GOP precinct captain or district captain in the US who wants my help, well you have it.  I have good help to give you.

Whip It Good: Erik was learning that to be a soldier, you had to follow orders.  That applies to us, too.    We signed up for this, we weren’t drafted.   We took the oath to support the Republican candidate.  We are called on now to stand and deliver.   Yes, I was for DeVore and Poizner.  Mag and Carly are our candidates, and they are my darlings.  The voters told us they trusted us.  Twice they told us that.  Were they right?  I had to whip one of my own committeemen into line just last night right in the CC meeting.   He’s young.   He’ll learn.

The night my son died, I said among friends who would not misunderstand… ‘I know there is a pony in here somewhere.’  PROCINCT is the pony.   This is the legacy of a 12 year old boy.  What could be more amazing?

Dear Erik,
You won… you produced a Dad who could…

Take that walk in the sunshine.  Take many of them.

COMMENTS

  • http://andrightlyso.com/ civil_truth

    What a memorial – but I trust he is waiting for your time to be reunited with him. God Bless.

  • JadedByPolitics

    I cannot begin to tell you how moving and heart-breaking this diary was to read. I THANK Erik too because he has one hell of an old man who is going to SHAKE THINGS UP in the GOP :)

    I pray that you find solace in the FACT that Erik loved you and RESPECTED you as I now do also. You are one AMAZING man and ColdWarrior is one as well! God Bless you Ron!

  • klondike

    That was inspiring! I didn’t expect to start tearing up at the end – that caught me a bit off guard. Very nice tribute to your son, and job well done. Cold Warrior is going to be doing cartwheels!

  • vital0gy

    I know I’ll be hugging my boy as soon as I get home tonight. Not that it means much, but my prayers are with you and your family.

    • http://www.800cart.com Ron Robinson

      I’m so glad that his sudden death did not leave me with regrets that I had not set the full example that I should have set. I filed. I ran.

      Don’t miss this opportunity. This is the civics lesson that your boy could never get in school (and they don’t teach that, or history, anymore anyway).

  • Aaron Gardner

    That was beautiful. Thank you.

  • http://www.theprecinctproject.wordpress.com ColdWarrior

    And, thank you, Erik.

    For Liberty,
    ColdWarrior, PC (that

    • http://www.800cart.com Ron Robinson

      Just goes to show you that if you are very afraid of what you are about to do….

      … you could do a lot of good.

      El Ronaldo

  • http://www.veronicaestrada.com/ Veronica

    what an inspiration.

    … away from the computer ..

    RIP Erik and thank you, Ron…

  • Stan

    As civil_truth said, I got a lump in my throat as I read this. Thank you for taking up the challenge – for getting off of your keyboard for a while, and for making a difference. And thank you for inspiring us all.

    I’m sure that Erik is watching, and he’s incredibly proud of his Dad.

    Thanks again.

    • http://www.800cart.com Ron Robinson

      … so I’m sure he is also amused!

  • aesthete

    I had a lump im my throat while reading this. I wish I could recommend, and I know that there’s at least on son who’s incredibly proud of his father sitting near the pearly gates.

  • remnant60

    I guess I’m just a big sissy, but this self-exploratory diary just tore holes in my tear-ducts…
    God Bless you Ron, and thank you for sharing both your gain and your loss…

  • http://www.theminorityreportblog.com/blog/loren_heal Socrates

    I cried like a baby.

    But the tribute is only part of it. There is also the knowledge that the tsunami is not going to waste.

    • remnant60
  • http://www.pawatercooler.com Redfox

    Ron,

    God bless you and your dear son. I’m the guy from Pennsylvania that you called whose database was all screwed up and couldn’t load into Procinct. I am the absolute stranger you reached out to because THIS. IS. IMPORTANT. and spent 10 minutes on the phone with because we share a common goal. I am the guy who was talking to you in the parking lot of a local Wal-Mart because I needed allergy medication and who is working on a campaign for a good man and who is tired of elected officials who think they are our overlords. And we think we’re the serfs.

    I believe that we traipse upon a knife edge and that one way lies slavery and the other freedom. Moreover I believe it is people like you who will lead us to freedom.

    I didn’t cry when I read your post because, unfortunately, I’ve become too callous in my young life to cry all that much. But I was grateful–grateful to you and to the Good Lord who gives us people like you and who holds your son in His arms. May He bless you and your work to preserve the freedom that He has given us.

    • http://www.800cart.com Ron Robinson

      I’ll work with you or anyone and do whatever it takes to get your district online. Make that trip to the courthouse for the data. Let’s get your whole CD or county online.

      You don’t need to cry.

      You just need the clarity Obama doesn’t have about whose ass needs to be kicked. And I’m clear that you do have that clarity.

      When we get our precincts and districts organized, they will begin to learn that their spending on media (even those clumsy GOP efforts at new media) and micro-targeting are netting them fewer and fewer votes, and costing them more and more million$. The they will learn that if they want those votes, especially in open primaries like they have now in CA, they will have to take their hats off and come to us.

      A new type of person is already appearing at the Central Committee, I met many of them last night. A new type of person will begin appearing at the state caucuses. A new type of person will begin appearing at the nominating conventions. Some will be seduced by the allure of the beltway, but many will not. We. Will. Prevail.

  • http://www.800cart.com Ron Robinson

    …ever since I clicked Publish…

    I didn’t want to make a public spectacle of my grief… and I was stuck…

    …but I had to finish the race – how could I do less?

    …and I had to get PROCINCT ready enough for use/release

    …and I had to thank the people who helped me win

    …and now I thank all of you

    …and I finally, really put Erik to rest in my heart

    • SteveLA

      Ron

      I buzzed around a bit and found your district and somewhat know your area of the county a little. So what was your set of issues that you think the R party in LA was not paying attention to? Did you have a platform of issues that you think the CA R party and the more specifically your part of LA county is being ignoring?

      • http://www.800cart.com Ron Robinson

        I learned out there on the street that I could shorten my time on every doorstep by 6 – 10 minutes by just saying I was a Tea Party candidate – before I could finish my sentence, they were reaching for my clipboard. Otherwise, I would have to take the time to explain Tea Party principles and that would take 4-6 minutes.

        I’ll be more than glad to discuss my discontents, but I think you understand why we must have that conversation offline. I both serve and govern now the officials who are in office. rsr (at) cartsupport.com

        And I’m glad to make a new friend of you, and hear you asking. BTW, I serve in AD49, LA County.

    • klondike

      You paid a beautiful tribute to your son and, before his death, provided an example of what it means to be a citizen of this country who appreciates its founding values. You continued on after his death, despite your grief. What an inspiration.

      I have to admit that my reaction was the same as Socrates’. I cried at the end. I just didn’t want to admit it because it shocked me. I did not expect that.

  • http://snarkandboobs.wordpress.com/ Lori Ziganto

    because my eyes were all tear-blurred.

    Thank you, Erik. Your legacy will live on in wonderful, countless ways, the full measure of which we’ll never likely know.

    And thank you, Ron, so much. Now, go kick some arse! :)

    Lori

  • discerningconservative

    I recommended it while it was still in the member diaries section, but was unable to comment at that time, as I had technical difficulties. I am not sure what happened, since I wasn’t chopping onions at the time.

    I not only thank you for a great diary, but for your running and winning a central committee spot. As a fellow precinct committeeman in Ohio, I also thank you for your hard work in bringing us Procinct.

    I send my condolences on your loss, and assure you that you and your family are in my prayers. I am sure that as Erik looks down upon you as you fight to bring conservative principles back to our country, his pride in his father will continue to grow. After reading your story, I can’t help but feel that all of us conservative committeemen that join you in the fight will have a Guardian Angel looking over us in our endeavors. (Sorry, my eyeballs are starting to get sweaty again.)

    Thank you, Ron, for all you have done, and all that you will continue to do.

  • penguin2

    Hopefully, the love and memories you shared with your son will help sustain you in the days, months and years ahead. Tears fall for you and your grief, but the most poignant words I think I have ever read in memoriam are those that are in your sig line:

    Ron Robinson
    Grandson of Lee
    Son of William
    Father of Erik

  • redneck_hippie

    between yourself and your son with both of your love of what our nation stands for. Thanks for writing it. To good purpose, I am sure.

  • earlgrey

    Truly touched.

  • Born Again Capitalist

    Thank you for sharing. First of all, I am a young man and cannot fathom your loss, but can only extend my condolences. However, I am touched by your uplifting and life-affirming response to the untimely loss of your child. That is truly amazing and inspiring.

    Second, when you wrote, ” I fly into a rage when the phone rings breaking my concentration. I hate people. I like solitude,” that is exactly how I am, as well. As a consequence, the thought of having children has always scared the goodness out of me. It’s encouraging to know that at least one other curmudgeonly troll (I say that lovingly!) out there was a loving and successful father.

    Finally, thank you for getting involved. Godspeed.

    • http://www.800cart.com Ron Robinson

      Even becoming an ‘involuntary’ father is a blessing beyond measure.

      Just as a man who allows himself to remain only a caveman limits himself immeasurably. A walk in the sonshine is a very good thing for the soul.

      If you have a real mission then you will be glad when the phone rings. Hell, I even put my phone number in an earlier blog post and the kind folks at RS have not abused it. The ones who called really needed help and I was able to help them..

      And I am a curmudgeonly troll. I earned it. I own it. I love it.

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  • http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/profile.php?id=1528745084 Gary Bentley

    I have been toying in my mind about becomming a PC in my district here in Nye County, NV. My local GOP website sucks and severly lacks information. Being an IT guy myself, that really pisses me off. I have a 15 yr old daughter who has been nicely mind-warped by the public school system and a wife that comes from a long line of Libs! I have the email address of my CC. I will be sending an email this weekend thanks to you!
    I may need help along the way and I’m glad there are folks like you who can help us noobs.
    May your son rest in peace with the Good Lord.

  • varia

    When I come of age, I would be more than excited to become a PC in LA County alongside someone with great vision such as yourself.

    Thank you for this diary as it has further motivated me to look forward to that day.

  • http://www.theprecinctproject.wordpress.com ColdWarrior

    I linked to it on my little blog. Perhaps you can use the Clark County page as a template when you fix the Nye County website. A few of us PC volunteers fixed the Maricopa County web site and gave content to the Arizona GOP for their web site — all it took was a little time and lots “squeaky wheel-ing” to finally get the changes and updates made, but the two web sites are now much improved Go here:

    http://clarkgop.org/precinct.htm

    Thank you for getting into the real ball game of politics.

    For Liberty,
    ColdWarrior, PC (that

  • constitutionalconservative

    Thank you so much for sharing it.

  • houstoneagle

    Thank you for the inspiring message.

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  • http://www.AmericanThinker.com Hammer2008

    For you, for Erik and now your precinct.

    I got a little choked up reading this, but inspired moreso. I’ll look to your assistance in a couple of years once I’ve made my transfer to the fleet reserve complete.

    I know of someone in your area who has done extensive work for the state party working with Hispanics. I’m sure he’d be open to aiding that 2012 goal we all share.

    Prayers for Erik and you tonight,
    Aaron

  • http://www.800cart.com Ron Robinson

    we’ll be glad to pipe you aboard with full honors any time you care to arrive.

    Hammer2008…. arriving!

    wait… the blue roger is the British Navy…. can we have that in the 2010 tea party? Hope so.

    Put me in touch with your bud. rsr (at) cartsupport.com

  • http://thesandsinstitute.org Vassar Bushmills

    …actually more like week. Life is better for everyone when you pas it on.
    Thanks

  • ocleverone

    It took me a while to read it through the tears but it was well worth it.

    God bless you and your family. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

  • carolinalady

    for what you’ve done, and sincerest condolences for your loss. Malcolm Muggeridge said that only suffering teaches us – not happiness or success or any of the good stuff. Maybe that justifies the suffering. Or at least helps some.

    Amazing job transforming the cyber-caveman. Makes me dare to hope that I will someday be a useful citizen too.

  • janis

    Your son, though none of us knew him in life, will be a part of RedState and the victories we achieve going forward. Whenever our will or courage looks to fail us, we will remember Erik and know that we cannot allow ourselves to fail.

    And someday soon, I look forward to voting for a man such as you for national office. For if someone loves his solitude and hates people, then that’s the kind of guy we need as a leader rather than one who loves the adulation and glories in the power to control others.

    Thank you for sharing such a huge part of your heart and soul here.

  • Common_Cents

    Watching his father kick some a$$! I’ve had somewhat similar loss and it’s a real wakeup call and clarifies life pretty quickly. Thanks for sharing as your writing is very inspirational!

  • Susannah

    I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your son. In the meantime, congratulations on you new position!

    Take care. :-)

    X0X0, Suzi

    PS–This was a great read!